Apel atau Jeruk?

Pernah nggak kalian para pembaca [ge-er amat, blog gw dibaca hehe] ada di suatu kondisi yang mengharuskan untuk memilih?
It is not like decisions you can pick up randomly, or because of other's influences...
Not even your bestest friends, or your moms...
It's all your call.

Sebenarnya masalah gw nie biasa banget, perhaps semua orang mengalaminya.
Kalau ada yang nebak ini masalah percintaan, kamu dapet seratus!
Bagi gw saat ini rasanya berbeda, seperti kamu tepat berada di tengah suatu momentum.
Satu detik terlalu cepat atau terlalu lambat, kamu tidak berada didalamnya.

Umur gw sekarang 25 + 2 [hahahahah....]
Dan gw benar2 sedang berada didalam momentum itu.
Big happy family's pushing, parents pushing, best friends pushing, them : are pushing...
Well at least one of them are.
Seems like everybody's pushing you around, to get you on a wedding. Geez!
Talking about pressures!

Okay, supaya nggak pusing, let me get this straight.
I have one boyfriend, officially.
And I have another one, unofficially.
Both of them knew each other, and get jealous with each other from time to time.
How could this even possible to happen? Gw gak tahu pasti kapan mulainya, but it happens.
Serasa melakukan poliandri deh...
Gw rasa ini kutukan, kenapa juga gw involve sama orang2 yang baik hatinya?
Hmm... mungkin karena gw juga baik hati [errgghhhhhh....]

My official boyfriend knows there's somebody else who's deadly serious with me.
And he didn't get angry when I ask him if I can go out with the other one.
Dia sih bilangnya percaya banget ama gw...
Though my bestfriends said that he's stupid for trusting me like that... [geez guys, thanks very much!]

Okay, to shorten this story up...
Let's just say, I'm confuse to choose.
Them, are like two different fruits : apple and orange
Sebagian orang lebih suka rasa apel, dan sebagian lagi prefer to have an orange.
Dua2nya baik hati, tentunya sih baik sama gw dan keluarga gw.
Mereka berbeda: styles, looks, heights...
And they offer me slightly different things

Apple, whom I love so much ;
Love me tenderly, passionately, dan gw benar2 kagum sama kesabarannya.
But he doesn't offer me security. He's affraid of the amount of responsibility in having a commitment. He said he's not ready, he's not there yet...
FYI, he's my official one. We've been together for three fuckin' years now, and he still don't know how to decide...

Orange, whom I like so so lah... ;
Love me blindly, delicately, dan gw juga kagum atas tahan bantingnya dia krn gw tolakin terus selama 3 tahun terakhir ini and he didn't walk away...
He offers me security. He's ready. He's old... [haha!]
The problem is, could I live with him for the rest of my life?
I don't have feelings for him.
And my mom seems like approving him entering my life.
How 'bout that...

Kalo ada yang baca...
You're welcome to give me anything...
Hopefully opening my eyes and mind.